Okay, so this weekend was horrible for me... I was in trouble with the law and am kind of thankful for it. I guess it was the best thing that could've happened to me. I have finally awakened and am going to re-vamp my life. I am going to smash all the cracked pieces and rebuild it to be stronger. Apart of me thinks its stupid but on the other hand, I need to get rid of that negative self and build me up a new POSITIVE and LOVING self... I have come up with a few goals that will save my life from the downward spiral it was heading down.
GOAL #1 : LOSE WEIGHT! Currently I am 281.6 lbs (I think-going to do an official weigh in tomorrow!)
GOAL # 2: No more law-breaking of ANY kind- I am going to live lawfully and abidingly.
GOAL #3: Finding who I am. Cliche I know, but seriously I'm fat, I broke the law, got caught and think I might be depressed. The first 2 goals at least #1 should help me find that self-esteem and security that I have lacked all these years.
So sounds pretty blah, but to me starting this blog as my everyday journal will hopefully thrive in my mind that I am worth it and that I can be better as a person. THIS is my second chance, THIS is where I turn it all around. It is my hope that by reading and following this blog, it will not only help me, but in some way help you. Tomorrow I start my excerise regime and throw myself into this new person that I am desperately seeking to see in the mirror.
'til tomorrow friends...
